BRIDGING THE GAP

It's a road we've all travelled, some more than others, but we've all gone through change.

For as long as I can remember (even as a child) I've always experienced a pull inside me at different times throughout life, becoming so strong that I'm unable to ignore it. Learning to trust it and jump has been the biggest learning curve of all. It can shake your whole being at times.

These are two images that sit in my lounge.

One of my before & after sets.

They're not there to live in the past, but more to remind me of how far I've come within myself.

They're my reminder, my visual, on the daily, that when I feel a pull, to step forward and bridge the gap.

Each of these versions have been judged & criticised.

The young girl with her own little girl. Not doing enough, not being enough, not ticking off life's checklist the way that was expected of her.

Then the woman who stepped into her self expression. She's been too much, expressed too much, said too much, told to tone it down a bit, looked at as who does she think she is.

There were many versions in-between these two, and other versions after the after.

Yet the gap is what no one sees.

What it takes to go from one to the other. It's not about the photos, it's about the internal work, the decisions, the action, the holding of self time and time again.

It's unlearning and relearning to find your way that works for you.

It's the love letters to herself,

The change in her language of her inner dialogue,

The acknowledgement of her gifts, strengths & differences,

It's knowing her own heart,

It's walking through the fire knowing she'll be ok,

It's learning to like herself.

You'll never feel enough if you're always looking outside of yourself for permission, for acceptance. That's all an internal job, and one only you can give to yourself. Others can help absolutely, but at the end of the day, it's you who has to move.

Before change occurs, I always experience frustration, even anger at times, and a tonne of doubt. Everything begins to feel messy, and all over the place. I crave more solitude to understand it, to lean into it. It's an unfolding.

When I finally take the leap, a sense of freedom washes over me.

I become ok with being misunderstood, because the process teaches me to understand myself more & connect deeper to my why.

If you feel the pull...let it pull you.

Let it show you what it wants for you,

Let it scare you a little or a lot,

It's wanting to pull you up a level.

You can resist it all you like, but it's a persistent little might,

that will never leave you.

If you want to feel the release...you'll have to jump at some stage,

That's where the change is,

That's where your next version of yourself is.

You my friend are more amazing than you're giving yourself credit for,

You have so much inside of you that people are waiting to see & experience you in the way you dream about.

You won't be for everyone - and that's ok, it really is,

You already have some amazing peeps who never disappear, who will give you the space & time you need to grow through that soil.

You're a gift to this world - I hope you see that.