GETTING LIFE TO FLOW

Most of my focus has been placed on TAOS (The Art of Self) and Char+Co lately, and not a lot of writings to share here, where half the time I don't really know what I'm writing, it's just pouring through me. When I first started writing blogs about 10 years ago, I would THINK what to write and it would take me ages, but I started, as I had lots I wanted to share. It started off making sure what I was writing would land ok for people but the more I wrote the more I was opened up.

I remember the first time a small sentence hit me, I had somewhere to be but instead I sat at my kitchen bench, laptop open and words just started to pour out. When I finished I had a big wave of goose bumps come over me and thought 'Where did that come from - what did I just write' but shit it felt good - so good. It gave me this natural high.

Over time, more and more moments like that happened and I was sharing something most days. A few words, a short sentence, words on a sign, lyrics of a song, would touch me and the next thing I knew, words would be streaming out...the more I trusted it, the more that would come through and the deeper, more honest my writings would become.

It's not often I look back on what I've written, but the times that I have, I think 'Did I write that'. I've been told many things throughout the years about my writing, That it's thought provoking, Like I'm in their mind, That they needed to hear that, But also it's too poetic at times, Too sharp or honest at times, To you have to be so open, Tt's too long haha. And I realised quickly that you can't please every body.

I also realised, that writing has been very healing for me. Being one who was unable to use her voice, to finding her voice. One who let dyslexia stand in the way far too often, to finding the gold in it.

It's something I encourage many to do - hence the journalling. All those things that fill your mind - you too have a lot to say, and when you let it out, you set yourself free with every word.

Sometimes we need softness, encouragement, love, soothing, words that feel like a big hug. And other times we need truth, kind not cruel truth (you feel differece), just words that make you rethink things a little, to see a different angle because too often we're only looking at things front on, through one lens, when with a little look at other sides we get more of an understanding. And for me, I always want to get to a place of understanding, sometimes it takes me a bit - and it's not always what I may believe in, agree with, but to understand teaches me a lot, helps me forgive, helps me see the good in the world and helps me appreciate how different we all are.

When you find something that just flows through you, without thought - that's coming from the core of you, your truth, a place that usually has lots of layers stacked on top. To reach it, to access it, it requires your trust, messiness, vulnerability, patience, moments of quietness, the courage to sit with it and and most all, honour it.

Think of when you lay your head down at night, when the world is still.

What comes to you in those moments, is your truth, is your heart, and it speaks to you before a new day - because every new day is your chance to follow it, as it's trying to lead you to where you're meant to be, not where you think you should be.

Don't judge it or criticise it.

Just listen and let your body soften into it.

The words it wants you to speak,

Forgiveness it's asking you to give to yourself or others,

Actions it's nudging you to take,

Memories that hold a mixture of feelings,

It's a time when you soften (that very few, if any, see)

And it's in the softening that it's trying to shape you.

Let it!

That's when the layers begin to peel back,

And life becomes lighter and things begin to flow.