Life happened for me, not to me...

From a happy, self assured young girl To a timid, full of shame and lack of confidence young adult, Back to a confidant, content, self assured woman.

Life happened for me, not to me. My experiences were all brought on simply by my choices in life, My choices were what slowly depleted me of my goodness, yet taught me soooo much about life, people, myself. So I made a decision to take it all back and become me again. If I could turn into someone I wasn’t really meant to be, I knew I could turn into the person I dreamed of being. And every day, every new experience moulds me into somethings else.

Everyone can do this, It’s just about deciding and working through it all one step at a time. I do this work daily, because as I grow more into myself and the more I want, the more I need to do.

I remember working for a family once as their cleaner, I thought I’d do it just for a year but I stayed for five years. Not because I enjoyed cleaning, but because I enjoyed being around them and their environment. Watching them as they moved through life. Their decisions, their choices, their experiences, their language, their actions. They inspired me in so many ways - and still do. I wanted to have, be and do what they had - I wanted that for my life also. But I had no idea of where or how to start…that was until I saw the books they read. So I started reading their books, I would borrow them and take them back when I’d finished it. I continued to listen and watch them. Then I started taking little bits of action each day.

My first step was in learning to speak again, with confidence. Trust me this was a really tough one for me, Having my opinion, saying what I really wanted in life, standing up to people who treated me in a way that didn’t feel right. Or just simply being able to have a conversation without feeling nervous. I was so used to keeping my mouth closed in case of being knocked down in some way. Or not knowing enough about...god knows what. For so long I had made up stupid stories in my head of who I was. Doing what everyone else wanted me to do or thought was right for me (totally my fault on this) Scared of being laughed at for having my own thoughts and opinions. This all took time and a shit load of lessons along the way. But I finally found my voice again and it feels so damn freeing.

Since then I’ve taken so many steps towards the life I really want for myself and my kids. It’s been a full on journey that’s for sure, new roads formed along the way, ones I didn't expect to take, but I'm a believer in, it all unfolds just as it's meant to and trusting in each experience.

It’s not about being someone else, it’s about being you and knowing how you want to live out your life. What does it look like, feel like for you? Are there people you look up to that you can learn different ways of being and blend it in with all the other goodness that is you.

Honestly if you are holding back on being who you want to be, you are missing out on so much and others are missing out on you.

No matter what has happened in your life, you have the ability to make changes, but only if you want it that bad. It's never to late.

'Own YOUR space'