DEDICATION TO SELF.

Today I made a dedication to myself. It's actually something I'm not going to share...it is just for me, myself and I. But by writing a dedication to myself it made some things very clear on some actions I had to take and are willing to take moving forward. The dedication I made to myself was a big one, which actually scares the living daylights out of me if I'm completely honest. A good part of me knows I have it in me to follow through with it, but there is a part of me that wonders if I can, that's the part that makes me feel really wobbly and I know it will take a lot of self support, kindness, kick up the butt talking on my part, but I've made a promise to myself on following through with it, I know it will take me to where I truly wish to be for myself and I hope one day in the near future I can share it with you. So with this dedication to myself today it has seen me make a couple of apologies to people in past & present...owning the part I played in things and I still have another to make. Unsubscribing from a number of things - yes emails that I receive haha, but also other things I'm no longer available for. Stories I've been telling myself lately, as well as stopping a conversation that was being had that was just not one I needed to be in today. It has also seen me take some action steps on a couple of projects I'm ready to move forward on. Throughout today there were moments of stepping into the person I knew I needed to be, to get me to where I wish to go. There were also moments of pulling back, questioning myself and at times feeling on my own with it all and wishing someone could help prop me back up...Shit today felt like a bit of a rollercoaster...haha but that's the beauty of life hey - gotta love it somedays. I've made promises to myself in the past but today this dedication feels different, really different. It's coming from a deeper part of me which is why I'm feeling all the feels today. So much of me knows this is what's needed of me to be all of me and who I wish to be moving forward. If we want anything, then we've got to claim it for ourselves - no one else will or can do it for us.