FOLLOW YOUR HEART

So Saturday night saw me kid free...a last minute night planned with their Dad to hang with friends. So I took that opportunity to get through some more work to lighten the load, being end of year and all. Once I ticked off what I really wanted to, I checked in on Facebook to see a dance night was on... I sat there for sometime, going back and forth wondering if I should go or not. I'm new to it all, I hardly know anyone, however I'm starting to, But still, showing up to places where you really don't know many people, and not knowing if the ones you do know will be going or not makes me get the wobbles. I'm very comfortable in turning up to places on my own...more so to those I know, Yet Saturday night was testing my comfort zone big time. Back and Forth, Should I , Shouldn't I, Really wanting to, but also wanting to back out. I did this for about half and hour until I decided to get up, have a shower and get ready... All while still going back and forth in my mind, Should I , Shouldn't I. But I just kept moving forward as though I was going, but not really sure if I would in the end. Would I put in all this effort of getting ready to then back out - I could have quite easily in those moments, But what was making me take a step forward was the feeling I get afterwards in showing up...for myself and doing what I really want to do for myself - no matter how scary it may seem. So step by step, Showered, clothes on, make-up done, shoes on, bag on, door open...suddenly I'm in the car driving down the road... Ha looks like I'm going, all while feeling all the nerves. Turns out it was such an awesome night...dancing til the end...learning new dances, new moves, meeting new people. With an invitation to another dance party. Along with my work that I wanted to get through ticked off. When we don't show up to what we know in our hearts we really want to show up for, We miss out on so much, We don't stretch ourselves. So where in your life are you not showing up for yourself. I myself, can take this experience, this opportunity and transfer it to other areas of my life, It's all the same, just different situations, experiences, opportunities. And in every new situation, experience, opportunity... The wobbles, the doubt, the nerves, the not good enough arises, It never goes away in those moments...but it settles as those new things become apart of you and your life. Follow your heart, Take a step forward and keep taking them, no matter how it makes you feel, If it's what you want, go after it, be it, do it Back yourself, And you can thank yourself later for it.