LET YOUR TRUTH BE TOLD AND THEN ALLOW YOUR ACTIONS BE THE MAGIC WITHIN YOU.

LET YOUR TRUTH BE TOLD AND THEN ALLOW YOUR ACTIONS BE THE MAGIC WITHIN YOU.

Those words you speak, those posts you put up, those announcements of all that you are planning behind the scenes, those things you're going to do, those big shifts you're making... Are just empty words....

They sound good, they feel good, but unfortunately they're just not backed up with anything else, it's just a moment, something to share, something to make you look good to the world...yet nothing really comes of it - does it, not really, nothing really amazing like you dream about. Those things you say you're doing, yet you've done it a few times, but it's not really apart of you yet. But you got your validation from others, you got the high five, the encouragement, the 'Wow you're amazing' spiel.

I say you...but I really mean me.

This has been me...as much as I'd hate to admit it. When I first started really putting myself out there, sharing things on the internet, there were many things I shared. There were many things I did do, sure, but there were many that I tried that just did not stick. Yet it sounded good at the time. I actually believed it myself at the time too, that I was going to do it, that I was going to stick with it all, that it was going to become a part of me, that this time would be different, I could feel it etc...but again, it faded, it fell by the way side...it happened to me time and time again. It happened because I was pushing it to happen, because it wasn't really what I wanted deep down, there are other reason to.

Are you like me...are you or have you done the same???

I've been really working on this and I decided a while back to stop saying certain things, unless it was actually apart of me and who I really am. I'm working on myself in an area of what really matters...words are nothing without action, so I'm allowing my action to be the magic, not my words. I have taken loads of action in my life for sure, but there were many I spoke of and didn't' follow through with, or lightly touched on, some were such small things, others big things, this is where I'm making the change. My words, my promises to myself are important, absolutely, but sharing it with anyone who will listen...to what... prove that I'm good at something, prove that I look like I have my shit together...ha...wow, no no no...no way...no more...

I know where proving myself comes from..... For many years I felt I had to prove myself to people, it came from becoming a mum as a teenager. Proving to others that I would not be stereotyped, that I would prove them all wrong that a young single mum can still do good for herself, can support & provide for herself and her child, and that I didn't need anyone else to do it for me (it came up again when I became a single mum again for the second time) and so I found myself always sharing all the good things, the achievements, the wins, the look what I've done or am doing shit...constantly pushing myself, working hard, but not on the right stuff always, always having things to do, do, do, but never really sharing the things I fell down on, messed up on etc. never my weaknesses.

I know I have done good for myself, ha you could say I did prove people wrong about who they thought I would be, but at what expense. Sometimes at the expense of my soul, my sleep, my loved ones.

Every now and then I still catch myself doing it to some degree, and as I'm speaking and hearing my words, I'm trying to pull my words back in and close my mouth haha...it's a work in progress...I acknowledge it and so I can hear and see when I'm doing it fully now. They're not lies I'm telling, they are simply things I promised myself I would do, I may have started, but never completed or carried on with. It's years of undoing a belief I had in me.

Maybe you have a belief you're holding on to. Maybe your acting from that belief yet it's not really serving you, it actually feels really heavy for you. Recognise this, then allow yourself to change that belief to a new one. You have that choice.

Now don't get my wrong, celebrating yourself, your wins, your achievements, having conversations with others on things you do etc is cool, I'm all for it. It's just when the reason behind it is to prove yourself of your worth, that's a different story. We don't need validation from anyone else other than ourselves. We don't need to prove ourselves to anyone else, We don't need to be in competition with anyone else but ourselves.

So although I love to write, my words for me must be more than just words. They must be who I am, they must be apart of me, with a lesson, and honesty in the times when I do trip up. And I hope that more of what we see on the internet is put out there with integrity, with full truth in who we are.

It's so easy to speak, yet it's the actions you take, that make your words more powerful & meaningful.