TO BE CONTINUED....

At 41 years old, I'm stilling finding out who I am. Thinking back to years ago, assuming when we get to a certain age we will have all the pieces of the puzzle put together, we will be the grown ups who have ticked off all the list on our life checklist and we can just live this life with ease. Sit and enjoy like queens on deck chairs in the sun.... But how fun would that be really??? I mean nice for a moment or two but after a while it would become boring. For me anyway. The older I get the more I find out about myself. The more I allow myself to experiment with life, experiment with who I am, the more I unfold to who I am. The past six months has seen me in a big experiment stage of life, Haha call it what you will, I know what you may be thinking, but I don't care. Stepping into spaces I've never been before, pushing myself into the unknown of things, surprising myself along the way. I don't wish to be the same person as I was at 40...she served me well through some great things, But who I am at 41 is pushing me further to my truth, further to more of what feels right for me. Some days I sit and smile at it all, Other days I sit and shed a tear at it all, I keep unfolding more of me, more of my truth. I keep catching little lies I've been telling myself, some for years, others for a moment, and each time I question myself why. Some days I tell myself to just stop and just be normal...but what is normal...really what is normal. I think in those moments it's to just be what society expects of me, but maybe what I think society expects of me or any of us is just a story we make up anyway....but either way, in my heart it tears me apart...because it's not my truth, it's not who I am. And so I continue on my way, allowing myself to experiment with life and drop into trust that I'm heading in the right direction and will tick off way more beautiful surprises along the way. I know what drives me, I know what sets me on fire, I know what gets under my skin And although I know all these things...new things show me more of it all. Don't sit still...for too long. Get up and step into spaces that make you look a little sideways because it scares you, but you know in your heart you just gotta try, because most of you gets excited by it. Do this with self, do this in your relationships, do this in what ever area of your life you choose...experiment, find new ways, others ways, different ways...just find ways that make you think 'Holy shit' to how you feel when you change things up a little. Be brave...step forth...unfold more of who you are under each layer of your life that's been. Unsubscribe from all the excuses that pop up along the way...because when theres a will, theres a way...many ways. Who I am at 41 is not who I will be at 51...even 41.5 As I will always look at life as...to be continued..