THE ART OF SELF JOURNAL

I lost the plot this morning and went and sat in my car. It had been one busy weekend with my kids, very little sleep had and so much on and to do. I was running on empty most of those days. There were moments throughout the weekend that I had to really back myself, having to use my voice more than I wanted to and it all felt so draining at times. Plus with this full weekend had, I am working on things that are really stretching myself into new places, new ways of showing u

For her it was "THIS IS THE NAIL IN THE COFFIN" Not all, but many of the woman who come into my studio to be photographed are either currently going through a shift in their life and are exploring themselves for the first time, trying different things to figure out who they, some pushing themselves so far outside their comfort zone, others just finding new ways to express themselves and to see what unfolds. Or they've already been through the big shift and are now in the spa

That head of yours, filled with so many thoughts swirling round and round like a whirl pool. Thoughts that fill that space can become so strong you're unsure which way to turn...to stay going with the current or to turn and go against it. Even though you feel like you've no control over it all, your thoughts, the motions in which it takes you, going with it seems easier as it picks you up and moves you along as it pleases...in the way in which you see everything else going. M

I've immersed myself into a new community, surrounded myself with people I'd never met before. I've taken a step back from my old ways to try something new for myself. It's been four months now and so much has been learnt from my experiences within this new space, with this new group of people. It's been fun, so much fun, but there's been times that it's been challenging for this introverted being that is me. I've pushed myself when my body just wanted and needed to rest, I'

We feel scared enough as it is inside ourselves, to be ourselves, we don't need another telling us to be a certain way that makes them feel comfortable. We beat ourselves up thinking we don't have enough, are enough, we don't need another speaking more words to strengthen those thoughts. We play tug-of-war enough with ourselves on wanting to let go, yet not being able to, we don't need another trying to force their speed or lack of onto us. All anyone wants is to receive e

Tend to your own garden and you will blossom like no other. Get a real sense and feel into who you wish to be as a person and commit to becoming that person. The woman who has confidence in her ability. The woman who can walk into the room alone and find her place amongst the crowd. The woman who can use her voice with honesty, love & grace to all that she requires for herself. The woman who knows in her heart what is for her and does what it takes to do that for her. The wo

We are all living with our own life situation, some similar to those who surround us, some we can relate to, others not so much, or not at all. But it doesn't mean freedom can't be found where you're at right now. Many feel that due to their family situation, work, children, location...that freedom has to wait, yet it doesn't. Freedom comes in all forms...it's just about taking your situation and seeing where you can create some freedom. Freedom comes with space and time, ye

The point came when I was just done, done with being serious, done with putting on different masks, done with reducing myself to feeling numb by not playing in the ways I knew in my heart I wanted and needed to. I was over thinking I needed to be a certain way around certain people or all people. As a mum of four there was a time I felt I had a roll to play and it had to look like this, this and this...the way I saw others doing it, yet it also didn't feel right for me in so

It is completely and utterly safe to be you in every possible way that your minds eye can see for you. All those times that you go off into dreamland of how you wish to look, act, speak, show up, Those moments you see another human who you wish you could bring yourself to be also, Oh the thought and feeling of it all seems great. Yet you find yourself stepping your mind back into where you are now, into this so called reality space and you think to yourself...Nah not me...