THE ART OF SELF JOURNAL

There were many times I just wanted to run, Run away from my life for a bit to just be by myself, to be able to figure things out for myself, To get away from people so I could heal, grow without any distractions, hard conversations, throw backs from others. I wanted so much to be a different person to who I was, Yet I found it so challenging at times to grow while being around those who knew me as I was. The idea of jumping countries seemed appealing to me, so I could grow

There's this mask people wear when they first meet others in life. They are on our best behaviour, They watch what they say, They listen to get a good feel of who the other is, What they think will be acceptable to say around that certain person, And they adjust themselves to fit in, to be accepted by that person, Whether for a one off meeting, For a day, For a few days, a week...what ever Until they get to know them a little more. And the longer they know someone, Slowly the

All those stories you're telling yourself... They're lies...all lies...all of them. Us amazing humans can be so good, oh so good at making up all kinds of scenarios, scenes, little movies in our mind, Of what we think is the truth (too much thinking, really isn't good for ones soul) But you know what doesn't lie... Your feelings. Your feelings don't lie, Never, ever do your feelings lie to you. Your body will share the messages you need with you. Your body feels it all. The

When we speak about having a story, the majority of people think it needs to be one of hardship, challenges, sadness, trauma...and that, that's what gives people the strength...but no, not at all, that's not always the way, and thank god for that too. A story can also be beautiful, fun, amazing, good...soooo good. There are good life stories just as there are challenging life stories. So if you feel you have no story...guess what, you do....oh you do. And it's your story th

What are you actually here for?.... There's so much stuff in life that we feel we "HAVE TO DO" Ways we 'HAVE TO BE" Ways we 'HAVE TO SHOW UP IN LIFE' And when I think about it all, all the ways we feel we 'HAVE TOO....' tires me out. I feel deflated if anything and really restricted. Maybe it's the creativeness that is me, that needs, requires, more freedom in self, For freedom in life, during my days, my weeks, my years.... So I can feel more joy, so I can feel like I'm li

Are you dancing along with life or against it? I get life has it's challenges, and some pretty hairy ones at that, I know, because I've experienced some pretty hefty things myself in life...just as so many other people have. So really, what I'm talking about here is our day to day life, our so called normal way of living...that's what many are making hard for themselves. Choosing things that just aren't for them. To keep up with others, to look a certain way. Filling their

Hands up if you like M & M's.... And no I'm not referring to chocolate M&M's either...although I do quite like them. I'm more talking about Men & Money here...yes two things I also like (I mean come on who doesn't right) This post will either make you laugh a little, Make you cringe...at yourself or at me (which I'm cool with) Or make you think personally about where you sit with Men & Money. They are two topics that people rarely talk about, post about, simply because we

Learn to hold space for yourself. It will be hard, you will be challenged, you will become impatient at times...but learning to hold space for yourself is where so much growth is found. Many times you must go through all the mess, the pain to be able to receive the beauty that life has to offer you. Transformation, doesn't come from all the pleasantries in life, Transformation comes from the mess, the pain, the uncomfortableness of life, of self. You must learn to shift thr

I've sat for a days watching, thinking, taking it all in. My mind jumping around all over the place wondering if I should speak and share. We all have a say if we choose too. For me it's not about trying to say the right thing, it was more about how to express all that's in my mind. It can become heavy at times, yet not speaking allows the heaviness to stay around and educating myself so I can educate my children is what's important. You see me as white, yet I am a mixture o